week of feb 27th '15

I was able to keep myself in check the whole week. I felt really good about this.
I easily replaced soda with water, tea and Snapple .
Even though the sugar content is rather high in Snapple it felt like a good over all substitution. Headed in the right direction.

I've also easily crested into the 40oz of fluid daily range again. I've been lacking in this recently and I've been starting to tell.

Next steps:
salads for lunch 2-3 times a week
re-join local gym
cut down drinking

Drinking:
I don't really have goals around this because I honestly don't feel like I drink too much.
I can, however, tackle what I drink in addition to portion sizing upon consumption.
Recently I've been sticking to a "just 1" rule when going out with friends; this has lasted about 3 weeks at this point.
I am also, however, drinking more beer than anything else. As I'm normally sedentary around home and the office - I feel like this might balance out once I become more active on a regular basis. (Winter's are tough man!)

Falling off the Wagon

The majority of the past 4 months have been an awful example of me trying to eat better and take care of myself. I know I'm better than this, and I can be better than this.

It's easier said than done of corse, and my biggest weakness is that I tend to get down on myself about how I "failed" or "fell off". This is of corse a choice which can further send you into negative spirals which may affect how, why, and how often I eat. Bottom line: a lot has got to change.

First Obstacle: 
Holiday eating
Most people have a problem with portion control and the holidays just make it worse.
What I can do better with this:
Be conscious with my choices. Don't reach for red meat. Watch my alcohol consumption. Go easy - there's like 15+ parties from thanksgiving to new years...you'll have another one.

Second Obstacle:
free soda at work
Holy hell. I need to substitute, plain and simple.
Water! water and tea are the answer. They helped me get over this hump before, and they can do it again!!
(update on this: as of today, I've been 1 week without soda, and 2 weeks without energy drinks)

Third Obstacle:
Goals. 
I flat out lack goals. I want to get back to the gym. More importantly, I need to know how I want to feel about myself both health wise and physically. I can further use this motivation to stay focused and on the path to better choices.

Fourth Obstacle:
Perfectionism
I'm and only child that grew up basically winning or excelling at everything i touched. I didn't have a realistic view or coping mechanism for failure until after college and failing many times.
With this came an adult package of a false expectation on what my body was capable of as I got older and a false understanding of what food, exercise and self-esteem can do to your mental as well as physical.
Getting too hard on yourself about failure puts fear behind the failure which intern potentially feeds your failure, or more importantly, your willingness to try again, or to keep trying.